Today is a sad day in my family. Today my dad would have been 58 years old. I can't believe that he would have been 58 today. I can't believe that he has been gone for almost 5 years. I can't believe that my children did not really get the chance to get to know their grandfather and know what kind of great man he really was. Oh sure there were times when he was an S.O.B. to me... but what kid at one point in their lives don't think that about their parents. My main problem is, I told him that, maybe not to his face but over the phone. It was a very bad time in my life and I just felt that he wasn't listening to me. I don't know if he ever knew I didn't truly mean it. Don't you think so? Do you think that he knew that i thought he could truly walk on water and leap tall buildings in a single bound? I sure do miss him! I wish I had 5 more minutes with him. i wish I could have told him how much I loved him and how much I just wanted to be his special little girl. I will never forget the one time he told me he was actually proud of me. He told me that I was a good mother, once. My oldest was about 3 then. I sure do miss him. I wonder if he ever forgave me. I wonder if he ever knew that I forgave him...
I wonder if he ever knew how much I truly love him even to this day...
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