Today was a good day at work. I had to do a bunch of work but it was good productive work. Which I like.
Then this evening, I got to get caught up with my mom. We got to caught up about my grandmother, who is living with her. And she is making my mom crazy. My grama will not leave the house and it is making my mom crazy. I don't understand why she won't leave, she is still able to get around, sometimes with the assistance of someone else. She has been this way since my grampa passed away. I think it is fear of the unknown of what is going to happen. My grama gets really upset when my mom has to do run some errands, so what happens is when my mom has to go out for something, not only does she call my grama, but I have to call her as well. I don't mind, i just want to see my grama happy and she doesn't seem to be happy cooped up.
Then my mom and I talked about sex and how much we both miss it and how we have survived all these years with having such bad sex, that once we have both found someone that has given us great/fabulous/innovative/imaginative/fabulous/wonderful/actual orgasmic sex, that neither one of us wants to go back. (BTW... my dad passed away 4 1/2 yrs ago.)
Anyway, I spoke to my eventually maybe never potential pet tonight and I really didn't feel like it but I figured that I had better or she is going to bug others and find out why I was being the way i was being. I was closed off and short answered with her. I am just afraid that if I am not then the drama in her life (or the drama that she imagines up) will come to the surface and then come into my life. I do not want that nor do i need it. I am finally getting to a place where I was before she was in my life and I was actually happier then. I want that happiness again. Is that too much to ask?
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