Where am I going wrong?

It seems like no matter what i say, no matter how i word things,  how I feel it always seems to be wrong.  I try and try and it doesn't seem like I am getting any further towards the finish line.    It is making me question who i am.  It makes me question what i am trying to achieve.  It makes me question what I am about.  It makes me question everything.  Where am I going wrong? 

Apparently there is a big difference between a slave and a submissive that I am totally clueless about.  My potential whatever just clued me in...  Want to know what it is she said?

a slaves role is to please their dominant only.  thats the only thing a slave will want to do even if they dont like what is happening..... a submissive will want to please themselves as well as a dominant but they dont think of the dominant first there are other distinctions but thats the main one
oh one more thing   a slave doesnt have the right to say no but a submissive can say no to anything they dont want to do


So this is my response in how I feel what she said...

so then by what you are saying me, wanting to be the Domme is not supposed to know how to please you.  And   by me asking you for advice on what and how to please you is wrong.   I see... so then it isn't meant to be because I want to know what you like and dislike and your turn ons and yes even your turn offs and what you want and hope to get out of this relationship as well as what you expect to either learn from me or share with me.    So I am in the wrong to ask this of you.  i apologize for troubling you and i will not ask anything like this or anything at all of you or from you again... please excuse the intrusions.

Where am I going wrong?

All i ever wanted, for as long as i can remember is to be a Domme or Mistress and I knew that it was going to be a difficult thing but it should not be this difficult.


All I want to do now is just give up on my dreams.